Help! Im really sad? 10 points?

I dont really know what to tell you about what to do, but I am SO sorry you`re having such a hard time in life, reading this made me cry a little for you. I absolutely hate when kids-teenagers-whoever, are mistreated like you are. Your mom has a problem with abusing you & this HAS to STOP!! Please seek help for this, with all this building up, father abandoning you, abusive mother, low self esteem, its only going to get worse. But you have to make the 1st step in doing something about this. You need to feel loved from your mom or family, to give you encouragement, without love & affection in our lives, we feel empty & lifeless. And you are not weird for liking that music, you`re just different than the people you are around that dont listen to it. Just be yourself, dont TRY to be anything you`re not, be comfortable with who you are. Change your hair if that makes you happy, get some acne cream for your face, but you will find love some day, everyone does, it`s going to happen!!